1. Move fifty percent of my worldly possessions into my room
2. Patch up any missing furniture
3. (Attempt to) Decorate my room
4. Move into my room and actually stay there
5. Wait for life science module allocation results
6. BID!!! for a certain module I desperately want
7. Piece together a timetable
8. Remember to attend the module/ program talks I'm 'strongly urged' to go for
9. Meet up with my OG mates (:
10. Meet up with my liebe lovers (: (:
11. Meet up with friends I want to meet up with/ haven't met in ages
12. Plan a movie outing for choc fac
13. Pray and commit this 'next stage' of my life to God

And a hundred and one things besides.

I'm busy. I'm stressed. I'm obsessing over inconcievably minor details, preparing for the worst. I'm extrapolating into murky, uncharted territory even though I'm aware of how futile it all is.

.........................................................

Nightmare.

I dream helplessness, despair,

Loss.

I am running but going no where

In a room with no walls.

Someone chokes on his own tears

Groans gut-wrenching, twisting cries that no one else hears.

I cannot stomach the sound.

Weighs down

Heavy.

And all around there is:

Insurmountable grief,

Inescapable loneliness.